cancel it all out now

k. what the hell. hello. urgh. i feel so fedup now. so many things currently happening at home. mum shouting/talking loudly with helper/maid that i can hear her from the room. i didnt want to go out and face it all. i hate it. i said i hate it. i hate it!!!!

so basically current situation sucks. urgh. what the damn. but sometimes i dont understand maid/helper. she's sometimes like so what the hell sia. give so many problems. act like so big. PFFFFFFFT. although sometimes she can be a good sport, shes still like what the hell. URGH. i hate the situation at home. and i really feel so damn fedup. i dont know what the hell's the matter with her. URGH.

i need someone to talk to. someone i can trust. but no, not counsellors please. its just too personal that i wont share it with just anyone, although i heard from bestf that mdm salinah's great. but still. i need a true friend. bestf wont understand me that much though. she wont be able to do anything for me. but then i dont want to put all the stress on another person. just to help me. i think keeping it to myself will be just fine. i dont want to trouble anyone just at the moment. but dont get the wrong idea, its not just about anyone. its about home situations and things. it sucks.

what the flagnott

just quick update. woke up at 8+ and then slacked. mum gave me 10bucks for the day. then got ready and went to je library at 1030 with sissy and bestf. just drank milo to fill stomach up. studied immediately while bestf and sissy slack like what. then headed to science centre at 12+ for lunch just to know that all the queues were damn long. so went to bustop near the 7-eleven and took 333 to imm. macds there wasnt so crowded (although it was, but better than science centre's) got a place and bought upsized mcspicy for myself 'cos i was damn hungry. treated sissy a McChicken and bestf a Spicy Snack Wrap. took a shuttle bus back to je mrt station.

then walked to the library 'cos laila called me to ask me whether i was coming to the library... lol. so we headed there... hah. ranice and hongxin was with laila and they were planning for the class picnic. :D decided that bbq was better, but hopefully pits are not full on the 15th xD ranice's mum will have to like, agree or smth? -.-" headed home with sissy and bestf at about 3.30.

bestf used my lappy for awhile when i reached home and so her latest post (today's) is from my lappy :D her internet/computer is spoiled like wtff?? and she pissed me off lots of times today but i just let it go. and it seemed im not talking to her now??? since we headed to the playground i was kinda moody with sissy and bestf cos bestf wont tell me a thing between her and someone. sissy didnt want to go home and so i shouted at her at home and what the hell im sorry k. i love my sissy loads and bestf too. and bestf pleaseeeeee forgive me if i was darn sarcastic at you today (lol)

i feel better now and i cant believe the devil took hold of me. i hate the devils aka satan/setan and i hope ill be a better person.

amin.